A SONG I LIKE ~ TATTOO~

Jordin Sparks - Tattoo

oh oh oh No matter what you say about love

I keep coming back for more

Keep my hand in the fire

Sooner or later I get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life

I learn every time I bleed

The truth is a stranger Soul is in danger

I gotta let my spirit be free To admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind

Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment

I realized nothings broken

No need to worry about everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back got a new direction

I loved you once needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

Just like a tattoo

I'll always have you (I'll always have you)*I'm*

Sick of playing all of these games

It's not about taking sides

When I looked in the mirror didn't deliverIt hurt enough to think

that I could stopAdmit that I'm wrong and then change my mind

Sorry but I've gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment

I realize nothings broken

No need to worry about everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back got a new direction

I loved you once needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

Just like a tattoo

I'll always have you (I'll always have you)

If I live every moment Won't change any moment

Still a part of me in you I will never regret you

Still the memory of you Marks everything I do, oh~

I can't waste time so give it a moment

I realize nothings broken (yeah) No need to worry about everything

I've done live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back got a new direction (don't look back)

I loved you once needed protection (no, no)

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I can't waste time so give it a moment (i can't waste time)

I realized nothings broken

No need to worry about everything I've done (no need to worry)

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back got a new direction (don't you ever look back)

I loved you once needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

Just like a tattoo

I'll always have you

LOVE TRAVEL CHANNEL !!

I love travel channel !! it got a great diversity and interesting !!

I watched a program ~" Bizarre Food " !! for me... I would say the host who's very brave and try everything !! of course ~ he's the host of the program ... so... he has to !! hahaha

it introduced bizarre food in Spain yesterday ~ I just knew that Spanish people almost eat everything like us !! haha the presentation of the meal in Spain not so much colourful ~ not so good looking but ~ I guess it's still tasty !!?

I will prove if it's really tasty someday !! haha

~check it out !! free video watching on line ~

http://travel.discovery.com/

Paris , Je T'aime

I saw the movie " Paris, Je T'aime " ~

every piece of stories is about LOVE ~

seems there's thousands of love stories could happen in Paris every day...

and people love to talk about love as well ~

haven't been to Paris anyway... but from the movie ~ I feel that Paris is kinda a romatic city~

and very beautiful...

but on the other hand... it's so easy to fall in love with someone , isn't it?

"LOVE" to them ... seems like a very beautiful part of their daily lives...

they cannot without it... like the air... the sunshine...

even if it's just a flash in the pan... they still desire it ....

evey single story in this movie is talking about different kinda way of love...

I did enjoy it ~ and the incidental music is nice too !!

I will visit Paris someday for sure !! ***

http://www.firstlookstudios.com/pjt/

The Grand Hotel 圓山飯店

I went to see Taipei International Travel Fair

and stayed in the Grand Hotel ~

it's kinda a old-world hotel in Taiwan ~

it's also one of famous hotels in Taipei~

this is my first time staying there ~ and I had a nice stay there !!

this is the link of Grand Hotel

http://www.grand-hotel.org/newsite/html/e/ca01.htm

decision changing...

many things happened to me these days...

something about love , friends and something about my future ...

originally, I'd planed to go to Australia with my best friend for working holiday...

but now ... something make me rethink it..

because I have a job opportunity after I graduate from collage...

and I do wanna seize this opportunity anyway...

well ... I just can take one side... and got to give up another one... !! >.<"

it's kinda a hard decision to decide...

through these days kept thinking and thinking...

maybe I would choose go to work first ~

many things and also my dreams need me to achieve them~!!

so... yeah... if I choose go to work instead of working holiday...

I must stay in Taiwan then... and also... I must face the real life...!!

keep thinking and thinking...

Bad Dream.... >–<"

I had a bad dream yesterday...

dreamed about something with me and some people who I'm not very well with them...

I just got shocked and suddenly woke up !! because I dreamed that I kissed a stranger... !!!

and I even don't know who he is in the real life... and I dreamed of some other people ...

and something happened ... ( cannot really remembered...)

well ... but at the moment I just woke up with being shocked ...

there was a guy who cames up in my head.... yeah... it's David....

when I turned on my laptop this morning... I saw he left a message ....

but the true was... we didn't catch up with each other again.... why...??!!

something made me feel kinda upset...

*** I miss you ...***

ZARA & MANGO

~ I love the outfit of MANGO & ZARA ~

LOVELY !!

http://www.stylefinder.com

I like surfing on that kinda website sometimes ~

but just looking ... ^__^"

Don't be sorry...

David told me that he felt sorry to me cause he couldn't catch up with me when I wanted to

talk to him... it happened couple of times anyway...

but I didn't mean to blame him for these things...

because I know he's kinda busy and often isn't in front of the laptop... just let it "sleeping" on the desk !!

but it's okey... I thought something over again...

and I wrote a mail to him... said some feeling of mine... something true feeling in my heart !!

all I want is simple... yeah it is true... it's simple but important !!

hope he could understand me and I also want to understand him more ~

My City~ Tainan !!

http://anping.tncg.gov.tw/home_e.jsp

Suddenly found my hometown got so many historic sites and temples for tourism !!

hahaha for me .... it seems not so much special anyway...

and I didn't mean to notice them since I grew up here...

remembered that when I was little...

we took many tour around Tainan city...

and teacher taught us many things of history...

hahaha I almost forgot most of them... >.<"

well~ maybe I guess I got to make a tour around Tainan then...

hahaha

So, when I saw the Tainan city tourism website of government ....

it gathers all of the spots together !!

wow... I just can say... Tainan really is a old city !!

Just found something good !!

I just found a website which is a blog you could post ,comment on, vote on, share your favorite sites or blogs with your friends !!

It's very good and I still work on it ~ searching something from there and posting my blog on it also !!

Here's the link...

http://www.spicypage.com/

My friend "Sammi" told me something...

昨天和Sammi聊了許多未來與感情的事情...

未來真的太遙遠... 現在也只能單純的聊聊~ 單純的想想~

就像我之前寫了封信給未來的自己... 許多的夢想~ 理想~ 願望~

希望能在未來一一的實現... 當我五年、十年後~ 甚至是更久...

在看到那封信時... 我已經完成大部分的事情了...!!

談到感情...Sammi 對我說...他第一次知道那種真心喜歡的感覺~甚至有那種可以嫁給他的感覺...

(如果他開口... ) 但是... 很多事情都是... 事與願違 ... 儘管聽Sammi訴說的一切都像是對方也對她有那份情感在... 但是，他們就是無法在一起 !! WHY ?? THERE'S NO ANSWER ANYWAY!!

雖然我不能完全的了解他們的情況，因為我也不是當事人... 但是我可以體會Sammi現在的那種感覺... 帶點痛苦 ... 又無可奈何...

他說他不想去強求... 所以也不想在去多說甚麼、多努力甚麼....

這好不像他的個性阿 !! 他應該是很有衝勁的ㄚ!!

果然遇到感情的事情，很多時候就不一樣了...!!

是的... 感情是強求不來的... 如果他們真的有緣... 還是會有機會的... 只是... 現在似乎帶著點遺憾...

唉... 現在的我... 好想念David 喔 ~ 真的好想念... 每當我想起他... 都會有股淡淡的哀傷...

可能因為真的太想念了吧... 這份感覺... 也只能默默的藏在心裡... 偶爾會寫信給他訴說我對他的想念及愛... 但是 ~ 大部分的時候也只能放在內心深處... 自己品嚐... 那是一種帶著淡淡的酸&苦的感覺... 或是... 在加上一點點的甜?! 我想... 如果現在楚於跟我一樣情況下的男女... (或是曾經有過)一定能夠體會... 那是一種愛與思念的感覺... 好想趕快再見到他喔... !! >.<"

Through MSN ~ 又一個不期而遇。。。

星期五的早上... 因為無聊 ... 一樣的... 瀏覽一遍平時我必定 check 的網站 ...開啟了MSN...
本來正準備下線的我... 突然看到有個小視窗跳了出來... 有人要加我為好友 !!?? 誰˙阿˙。。。
由於最近太多莫名其妙的土耳其人加我MSN，已經封殺了好幾個了... 可是似乎沒有用!! 是要我訂製一道隔離圍牆嗎?? 一直懷疑我MSN是不是中毒了... @.@" 所以我就想... 又是誰啦??!! 看了看名字 ...Terry ?!
又看了看帳號，確定不是怪人後... 我按下了"確定"鍵!!
原來他是在背包客棧看到我的~ 所以加我為好友 ~ 好家在阿...!!
可是ㄋㄟ~ 我們似乎不是分享旅遊的話題，聊著聊著就聊到感情話題去了...
他跟我一樣... 有談過異國戀情的經驗... 只不過他是"過去式"~ 而我是"現在進行式" ~ ㄏㄏ
他跟我緩緩述說他的那段刻苦銘心的愛情... 我聽了真的很難過... 也很能體會...
最令我感動的是... 在他跟他的瑞典女孩同遊北歐時... 他跟她說說 " 這次的旅行就當成是我們的蜜月旅行，不論最後的結果如何，這都將會是一段難忘的回憶，我們一定要好好珍惜.... "
當時的我，坐在電腦前... 想像那個情景，真的好想哭喔...!!
唉~ 距離真的是個很大的問題，也是感情世界的殺手!! 要克服，必定要下很大的努力!!

現在的我... 也是處在同樣的情境中，只不過... 距離沒有那麼的遙遠而已...
台灣與日本... 只要大約兩個半小時的飛機...感覺似乎不遠... 但是"機票"對這個還是學生的我~
就足以說 "遠阿 ~" 我們交往到現在也才半年多，往後還有很多日子要走，還有很多要飛的機會~
不論是他還是我... 我們聚少離多~ 不過每次的見面，都是替感情加溫的最好時機，

可能是因為我們很少見到彼此吧... 所以會倍感珍惜...

希望我們能在有很多很多的半年~ 甚至是永遠.... !!

這次我是真的想認真的定下來了!! 雖然我還年輕，但是，如果遇到了那個 "對的人"~
不就該好好把握住!!? 是的!! 至少我是這麼想的...

真的希望好好的跟他在一起~ 一直~ 一直~ 在一起...

***小星星義大利城堡***

位於台南市的小星星已經開了三家分店嚕~!! 老實說，我也是慕名而去的啦!!

由於方便性考量，我和Sammi 選擇了 "城堡 "!! 他們的服務員很親切，服務也很貼心~!!

最重要的當然是。。。 餐點啦。。。 從麵包、湯、前菜、主菜、甜點到飲料~

每一道都吃的出他們的用心以及食材上的 "挑剔 " !! 呵呵 ~

我最愛他們的手工麵口感 & 義大利麵醬汁口味~ 吃過了許多的義大利麵~ 我可是很挑嘴勒!!

小星星~ 真的很值得在去拜訪一次 ~ !! ^c^

麵包籃~

佐特製橄欖油&鮪魚沙拉

生菜沙拉佐蔓越莓醬

開胃前菜~ 蔬菜濃湯+涼拌九孔

田園里肌義大利麵

佐南瓜醬

鮮蝦海鮮手工寬麵

佐彩椒醬

another folk dancing !!

exciting !!

~ so much joy ~

folk dancing club ~ visiting one of my friends！

ｓｅｅ！ｔｈｅｙ’ｒｅ　ｓｏ　ｅｎｊｏｙ　ｄａｎｃｉｎｇ

ｔｏｇｅｔｈｅｒ～

what's happening to me today?!!

It's kinda weired today... just feel very lazy... and don't wanna do anything... anything...

yes... I did think about doing something... like reading , studying or so...

but just cannot have that energy to do all of that things.... >.<" why why why ~~

I don't want me to be like that !!!

oh... it's because of the chololates ?? I had lots of chololates this afternoon ...

it supposed to make me excited !! yes... that's what chololates supposed to give... it calls " the side effect " ?? hahaha but seems I'm not affected by it ...

I've been addicted to chocolate for a long time ~

well ~ I got to say... I've been addicted to many dessert ^c^"

chocolate, brownie,cheese,bagle,bread,spicy food..... lots of stuffs !!

~SWEET SWEET SWEET~

LIFE IS UNCERTAIN...

EAT DESSERT FIRST !!

... Distance ...

my best friend... Sammi .... she told me something that made me feel very sad.... truly...

she seemed to fall in love with a guy and wanted to be with him....

but just because the distance... it's just Taipei and Tainan, 4 hours by driving, 40 min. by flight, one hour and half by high speed rail....

it's not that far actually....

but the guy who wants a girl who can accompany him when he is happy, upset , sick...

whenever he wants to see her... he can see her then... but my friend cannot do that... !!

kinda sad ... really .... feeling sad for her... and sorry for her...

just hope that she could go through it soon ... be happier ...

I'll accompany you anyway...

you can tell me whatever you want

whenever you want

and I would give you some advices then~

but... the point is...

you got to think about it over again...

and be possitive,be brighter...

thinking about what you did ...

what's your real feeling ??!!

stop for a while...

and maybe after you think over again...

you would become better...

TRAVELING ON THE TRAIN OF " トロッコ "

嵯峨野トロッコ列車

CATCH YOU !! SHRIMP !! HAHA ≧０≦

~ It's a funny mistake !!! ~

A film ~ " The Notebook "

A love story... very very touching...I watched the film yesterday... and I was tearing a lot !!

the story is saying that something about the "first love"... you won't forget your first love....

for me... true... I never forgot my first love.... but the different thing is that I had it just let go...

cause it's kinda long time ago...and when I recalled my first love , I was like laughing a lot !!

hahaha cause it's kinda funny and at that time... I was too young to know what love is...

well if you ask me now...what's the love ? probably I would think about it for a while still ...

cannot give you a answer ... it's complicated... true !!

It doesn't mean that you know what love is even if you are growing up

for me... love is becoming simple now... because I was thinking too much before...

I couldn't be very easy to trust someone... it was hard for me to give my heart for someone...

and even... I could say that I haven't truly been in love before...

I was always like... the feeling came very fast and faded away very fast ...

so...I didn't have a long term relationship...( just my first love is one year... is it long or not ?? )

and I changed and changed in every year... my friends always felt that I got and changed boy friend very fast... well... I don't think that's fast actually ... just very easy to accept someone and said yes... but maybe it was not fair... cause usually I didn't give them my heart... "me" always came first ... hahaha kinda selfish... wasn't I ??!!

and I did think that I was searching .... searching a right person... my Mr. right...

anyway... just recalling a little bit again...

the point is NOW ... I have a nice boy friend now !! ^－^ and I love him !!

I do think this time is right... I finally found a right person ...

I hope that I could be with him for very very long time... cannot say ... " forever "

because there are too many unpredictable things... and I don't know if he is thinking the same way with what I am thinking ... so ~

this time I just wanna give me heart... there was many things happened ... and they all proved one thing... I love this guy !! I know myself... many things I didn't do or think that way before...

but now ... different !! indeed !!

when I was watching the film..." THE NOTEBOOK " ...

I was thinking of him much...

miss him very much... ...

Learning Spanish is kinda a long way to go... >o<"

I started to learn Spanish ....

but it's kinda complicated ... so many different stuffs from Chinese or... even English ??

I wrote some notes and tried to figure it out many grammar things... but still felt too difficult to understand !! ...

well ~ I'm gonna try my best anyway...

cause I really wanna learn !!!!

*** and of course... make it become better someday ***

MY MOM SAID...

I got a very exciting news from my mom ~

my mom said... " I'd like to take you to Greece with me next year "

when I heard this news ~ I was very excited ~ hahaha ^0^p

I just said..." really??!!! yes!! I wanna go ~ I wanna go ~ "

no matter what there's something try to stop me... I won't be stoped anyway !!

I'm so expected for next year coming ~ it will be a very different year next year ~

there're many things waiting me to fulfill it~

the first is ... I got to have TOEIC test next February !

the second is ... I got to plan my working holiday ~ I'm planing to go to Australia for working holiday since next beginning of October or the end of September !

the third is ... my graduating trip is next June ~ (two weeks trip ) I'm going to go to America again~! but this time is the west coast !! it's better for me since I've been to the east coast !! hahaha I'm gonna graduate from collage soon ~!! dunno I should be have more happy feeling or more worry feeling or.... ??!! but anyway... I tend to have more happy feeling !!

the forth is ... I'm going to Greece with my mom next beginning of September !!

hahaha seems I won't be in Taiwan almost half a year next year ~

and the most big thing is .... I must go to visit my David couple of times next year too !!

see ~ how exciting next year will be ~ !!

Really got a serious problem this time ...

I got a serious problem this time... really...

and the only solution is I gotta practice by myself !!

for him and also for myself... I have no chance but do it !!

so I will do it when I recover from "it" !! >.<6>

I haven't thought that I would have this kinda problems before...

and I haven't thought that I would want to make changes and do something just because of him... it's not like my style anyway...

but ... maybe this time is different....

I found that maybe ~ he would be different from all of my ex-bf...

I found that maybe ~ I would give my real heart to a special person...

I found that this is the first time I really care about something about a relationship...

anyway... I will do my best to try...

it's about time to off my computer again...

the last thing on my mind is ....

*** I MISS YOU VERY MUCH ***

** A Letter for Future Me **

Dear Future Me :

Are you happy? Where are you now?? Have you fulfilled all your dreams???

Future just like a question mark, no one knows what it will be.... but because of this ~

it makes the life more vibrant and colourful ~

Are you happy ? I hope you are!! Do you get the happiness that you wanted? I hope so...

Where are you now ?? Still in Taiwan or somewhere else just like you desired before ?

I hope you are living in the place where you desired ~ your dream country or your dream land...

Have you fulfilled all your dreams ? well~ probably not... but you must have done some of them though !! Do you still remember what your dreams are... ??

Let me remind you ~

You said that you wanted to enter a international company ~ and you could have that chance to work abroad ~ you wanted to get a good job ~ have a good salary ~

You said that you wanted to travel around the world when you made enough money ~

you just wanna fly away~ to find the real freedom, the real "you"...

You said that you wanna own a small shop or cafe ~ that could be clothing shop,coffee shop, snack shop , or cafe ~

You said that you wanna have a family ... sweet husband, sweet home ~

and everyone around me who all healthy, happy, get what they want ~

Still keeping in touch with my best friends~ you all mean something for me...

All your life would be wonderful if like this... It looks simple... but somehow it doesn't !! indeed !!

SO~ ARE YOU DONE ALL OF THEM ? OR JUST SOME OF THEM? OR... NONE OF THEM ?

HOPE WHILE YOU READ THIS AGAIN... YOU ALREADY DONE SOMETHING WELL !! ~

Just Believe In What You Believe 。。。

"Just believe in what you believe... and don't let others twist your mind "

yeah.. that's a saying what I think about now...

one of my friends just judged my relationship when I went to Japan...

well~ I felt a little bit upset at her... cause she isn't me !! she couldn't say something like that...

she isn't in the situation and she haven't got this kinda situation as well...

maybe you got to in there and you would understand what's really going on...

but maybe I could understand why she thought so...

cause if I were her I probably would think so too... but that was the "past me"...

in the past... I was kinda rational... even if I was in a relationship...

I just couldn't believe in others... I was always thinking maybe he just wanted to get something from me !! something bad...

but who knows this time I just jump in totally... cannot help myself !! . . .

( cannot believe myself either... is it Anita ?? HAHAHA )

now... I'm like keep everything simple...

don't try to make things complicated...

just be happier ~

if you asked me ... " am I happiness ? "

I would definitely give you a big "YES" ~

*** ~ YES... I AM HAPPINESS ~ ***

I am back from Japan ~

I'm back !! Time moved so fast ~ my 5 days visiting just ended up yesterday... !!

I'm ganna start to miss him again !! >.<"

This time we went to some place where I haven't been to...

神戶 at night、岡山縣 visited the Okayama Korakuen Garden、嵐山 嵯峨野

took the Sagano romatic train .... all of them was great !!

We also had a kinda "explore" in the second day ~ we couldn't make it to take the train and back to Nara... so we decided to stay in somewhere ... IN THE INTERNET CAFE !!!

and kept going the next day... that's my first time didn't sleep almost 48 hours !! kinda crazy !!

but because it was with him ... so everything was okey for me... ^^"

I would never ever forget all of that ... we seldom see each other... maybe that's why everything we do for me it's like... very precious !!

This time I went there ... also had two dinner with his friends who are came to Japan for honey moon !! during the time... I couldn't understand what were they talking about ...

cause they were speaking Spanish almost all the time !!

It also made me thought that I really have to learn Spanish....

well I've strated to learn anyway... but it all just begining... I still got a long way to go !!~~

but I will try my best... from the simple sentances... hopefully I could do it good one day...

hahaha (^﹏^)b

I am in Japan again !! ^__^ ||

Im now in Nara where is my David's university located

remembered the first day when I was at the airport ... my mood got very complicated...

cause I skipped the class and came here secreatly !!

but anyway... I just did what I wanted to do... !!

from the first day till today... I was like ate a lot of food ... every meal was big !!

I told him that if I lived with him everyday... I would become fat in a very short time.... >.<

kinda terrible isnt it?!

and he always eats very fast .. fast... cannot chase the speed of him when we are eating...

so every time when we finish one meal ... I always feel very uncomfortable with my belly... !!

hey... you just cannot slow down when you're eating ??

he's sleeping now.... it's already 1 past 10 PM... and I'm hungry now...

but I cannot do anything but sitting here playing computer....

hey hey hey... wake up !! WAKE UP !!

I started my Spanish class yesterday !!

HAHA !! FINALLY ~ I started the Spanish class !! From yesterday... and I'll attend the class every Saturday night ~ The teacher who's a Taiwanese and she's fun, full of energy~ I do think I'll have much interest in Spanish from her !! and plus ... the main point that I did wanna learn Spanish is "David" !! so... I must got much energy on it !!

The teacher I guess she's kinda Spain addict ~ she knows many things about Spain and visits there bunch of times... well ~ no doubt... she's a Spanish teacher she must like that for sure !!

I wanna take it seriously this time ... no game again... and I do think as long as I truly want to learn I will learn much from the teacher !!

SoMeOnE iNsPiRe Me ...

I read a book and the author is 吳淡如~

She says something really inspiring me a lot ~

She says... it's the worst thing that do not keep working on something anymore...

and just stop moving on...

so she makes up her mind ~

Must to learn a new thing every year~

Must to go somewhere that she never been to~

Must to learn some concept~

Must to have some new idea~

Then she says.... everyone has their own right to choose the life which is they wanted~

to own the relationship which is they desired~

Don't repeat what others say and to find a way... insist on it ~

Also got to have a hope that never swims with the tide... !!

Yes... I have same thought with her as well...

I totally agree with her... !!

Having a Indian Cuisine ~

I had a big lunch with my friends today ~ ( Sammi and Stefanie )

I love curry very much ~ especially Indian one !! hahaha yummy !!

My friends who's my friends met in NYC , we had Indian food there couple times~

So we compared with that ... !! One of my friends said that meal a little bit "tend to Taiwanese"!

well ~ I just thought the one we had in NYC was more delicious then here ~ but here is good as well ~ just the portion was a little bit small though ... >.<"

Anyway... overall~ I had a good lunch date with my friends ^u^p

seeya in December ~ Stefanie ~ !!

MaDe A DeCiSion !!

I made a decision today that I'm going to learn Spanish again !!

hahaha I had tried once learning Spanish ,but I quit after learned one month !!

Cause I felt very frustrated .... it's kinda difficult for me and plus my English was not good either... !! I even couldn't understand what the teacher taught us... and didn't know how to ask the teacher for helping me to solve my problems either !!

Sort of sad and terrible experience for me !!

But this time is different ~ well... I hope it is !!

I have a goal ~ I must achieve that !!

Just do it !!

I got my flight ticket already !!

I got my flight ticket to Japan yesterday ~

It's kinda a secreat short trip ~

cause I didn't tell my parents and classmates even all of my friends either !!

just told couple of my friends though...

I don't wanna say it out loud to many people anyway ~

Cause not so many people know that I have a " Español novio " hahaha

Is it a secreat also ?? Well... not so really is...

I don't think I'm a person who have many secreat ...

Always keep myself very being "public" LOL

anyway, I'm gonna go to Japan again for visiting my David !!

so look forward to it !!

It's like... 12 days countdown ~~ ≧0≦p

CoMpLiCaTeD Feeling .... >﹣<"

David told something to me this morning ...

He said he's gonna get a part time job soon and the position is... host !!

I asked him... " what kinda host ?? "

He said... " at bar !! like girls who's standing behide bar and being a hostess, doing services"

Well ~ what kinda services ~ "talking with customers"

I know what kinda job it is... we have this here in Taiwan as well ~

But sometimes.... it's not a good job for general...

Just can make lots of money with a easy way and in a short time ...

I even didn't think about that he will think doing this kinda job for making money anyway... !!!

so I just like... " shocked !! " a little bit surprised also !! and got a little bit complicated feeling...

He explained the details to me and said.... " he won't do anything over it , just chatting with those rich women... that's all !! "

I said... " okey... I see... and I trust you ... "

Why did I choose that trusting him ?!

It's all just because he's my boy friend and I love him.... am I stupid ?? !!

hahaha I don't know ... but I know what I'm doing ... for sure !!

I do think he is trustful ~ and if he isn't.... he won't tell me that he's gonna do that kinda job anyway... so...

YES... DAVID... I TRUST YOU... AND HOPE ... I'M RIGHT ...

It also make me thought about one thing again... " MONEY is such a important stuff "

It's hard to live very well without money.... and like the situation of us...

It's more harder !! I'm also a student... and I'm gonna quit my part time job this end of month...

How about after that?? !! I do wanna focus on something meaningful for myself...

so I decided to learn languages more ~ that also means I won't have extra-money then !!

I just can save money from my daily life.... >_<" maybe if there's a chance I will find a weekend PT job in Tainan.... ( yes, I decided to go back during the weekend ... cause maybe it would save some money also !! )

anyway... the thing is... I believe in you , David !!

so... hope that you won't do anything more then what you said to me !!

I watched the travel & living channel ~

I watched the " travel & living " which is one of my favorite channels

the topic was traveling in Europe and buying furnitures

and this time was in Madrid !!

I never been there ~ well I never been to Europe ...

so my eyes were blinking~ blinking !!

Especially it's in the Madrid where is "my David's" hometown !!

Madrid is vibrant with people and very beautiful !!

I really wanna go there one day !! hahaha I hope that I had that chance ~

Well ~ I will have anyway, cause I'm just 21 !! Still young !! LOL

I haven't seen this world enough !! and if I could I would definitely do !!

我 還 沒 看 夠 這 世 界 !!

RuN aWaY ...

What a "FXXX" day today !! ><"

In the morning ~ everything was fine and I could say... very well !!

I hung out with one of my old friends ~ chatted a lot and had a very good time !!

But the thing is... in the afternoon... something happened in the afternoon...

Well... I just can say.... I felt very unhappy when I was working ....

Got so much pressure... and found very bored....

I couldn't have any smile on my face.... couldn't "make" a smile as well !!

Even to ask me to make a "fake smile "... also make me feel difficult !!

I looked the mirror when I went to the rest room, found ....

WHAT A UGLY FACE IT IS ?!! WHO IS IT? AM I KNOW HER ?

I tried to smile.. but just couldn't... !! just wanted to cry.... really..!!

I was thinking if I quit the job... what would I do next ?

I was thinking a lot , a lot... and kept wrinkling my eyebrows....

My face was like... distorted !! >0<"

I got to plan something meaningful for me though...

I had many plans... but haven't made it !!

seems like I just keep thinking and doing nothing !!!

I hate myself like this...

got to do it anyway...

I decided to end up my PT job this month, and might study instead ~

I really have to do it !! cheer up ~~!!

SleEpY... sLeEpY ~~ all the time !! ≧o≦"

How come I feel soooo sleepy lately ?!!

Is it because the winter is coming ?!!

Or I got some kinda mental problems ?!!

HAHAHA

I don't think so anyway...

But I have no energy at all...

Just wanna sleep ...

Well ~ recently... I didn't do anything meaningful, just downloaded two movies and bunch of musics ~ read some books and surfed on the internet as usual !! hahaha

?? What kinda life I have now ??

So meaningless ... gotta find something more meaningful do to !!

I had some plans ~ just haven't got started to do...

Got to cheer myself up ~~ go go go !!

Te Echo De Menos !!

The song "Bubbly" makes me think about you ...

We cannot see each other often like other couples...

That make me feel sad ... truly...

I own a little book...

To note down many things about what we had and experienced...

( also stick some lovely photos on it )

When I miss you ...

I write something on it as well !!

Well ~ I cannot do anything but write something down...

It also be memories of us...

I don't know how we will go in the future...

The only thing that I know is "now" !!

Time will tell,

will prove,

Let's take time to realize ...

Right now...

I just wanna treasure all we have...

and don't wanna think too much...

~ Te Amo ~

Bubbly

I've been awake for a while now

you've got me feelin like a child now

cause every time i see your bubbly face

I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes

and I crinkle my nose

where ever it goes i always know

that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time

where ever you go

The rain is fallin on my window pane

but we are hidin in a safer place

under the covers stay in safe and warm

you give me feelings that i adore

It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goes

I always know that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time

where ever you go

What am i gonna say

when you make me feel this way

I just........mmmmmmmmmmm

It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goes

I always know

that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time where ever you go

I've been asleep for a while now

You tucked me in just like a child now

Cause every time you hold me in your arms

Im comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul

And I lose all control

When you kiss my nose

The feeling shows

Cause you make me smile

Baby just take your time

Holdin' me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go

by Colbie Caillat

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2PWfB4lurT4