Really got a serious problem this time ...

I got a serious problem this time... really...

and the only solution is I gotta practice by myself !!

for him and also for myself... I have no chance but do it !!

so I will do it when I recover from "it" !! >.<6>

I haven't thought that I would have this kinda problems before...

and I haven't thought that I would want to make changes and do something just because of him... it's not like my style anyway...

but ... maybe this time is different....

I found that maybe ~ he would be different from all of my ex-bf...

I found that maybe ~ I would give my real heart to a special person...

I found that this is the first time I really care about something about a relationship...

anyway... I will do my best to try...

it's about time to off my computer again...

the last thing on my mind is ....

*** I MISS YOU VERY MUCH ***