Friday, February 29, 2008

every encounter has its meaning ~

I believe in that every encounter has its meaning...
yeah... I believe in that since while ago...
many things happened to me must had something connected with each other...
and I was suddenly came out with some pieces of pictures which happened before !!
which might be something either I remembered at random or just impressed me or so...
how strange it is... hahaha but for me... all of them is some kinda magical things to me~
those things included happy, sad, shocked... many emotions...
and sometimes made me surprise as well ~

well... does anyone has any experience like me did ? haha
think about it ~ maybe you could come out with something which was just like what I mentioned about ...
try to pay more attention to your every day life... explore life...
you might find many things happened , many people you met by accident ...
all has its meaning ... ...

the most important thing is... enjoy your life !!!

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Firework at Lantern Festival

video

** Lantern Festival **



~ ~ In chinese culture~ ~
This year is "mouse" ~ we have Lantern Festival during chinese new year every year~
so... as the past couple of years ~ I went to Lantern Festival yesterday , took some pictures as well ~ it was good ~ but for me... dont know why... seemed I didnt that much enjoy yesterday... just felt kinda the same as last year I saw...
( ... the topic wasnt the same though...)
@﹏@"
anyway ~ overall it's good !!

video

Thursday, February 21, 2008

guys' issues

one of my friends Sammi talked about something with me yesterday~
she asked me " are guys just interested in talking with the women who are they like ? "
well... I said... " probably YES..." why did she come up with this question ?...
it's because there's something happening yesterday...

we hung out with a guy ( my frined invited him having lunch with us... )and who was really quite being with us...
we had tried to asked some question, tried to think about some topics talking with him...
but it didnt work anyway... well... I was wondering why did my frined want to invite him join us for lunch ? !! because they are not really know each others very well or something...
but my friend just said... she didnt care that much... okey... but actually I hate that kinda feeling ... the air was just stuffy .... I had no idea what I can talk to him...
and he seemed had no interests talking with us as well.... so... kinda bad experiences yesterday...
actually... I dont like that kinda guy and had no interested in being friends with him either...
hope it wont be have next time !! ><"

so... just because of that... Sammi asked me that question though...
um... even though I have 80 % agree that saying... but there's still some exceptions !!
maybe just depends on guys... I mean... in my opinion ...
men and women really can just be friends for sure !! ( because I have some boy's friends~ )
just... maybe it didnt happen to her anyway...
but I do have a question... and I do agree with that thinking ...
if a woman wants to make friends with a man too actively ...
does the man think that maybe she wants something from him or she is crashing down on him ? and he will just like dont care anything... and wont have interests in the woman anyway... ?
the answer might be positive ... !! @_@"

Thursday, February 14, 2008

~ Valentines Day ~

it's Valentines Day today!! it's a day for couples !! can image there are millions of couples out there ~ cuddling , kissing, having a super great day together...
well~ back to me... I have no plans for celebrating at all this year... sad?! I would say ...
A LITTLE BIT !!
because my bf is out there in Japan (kinda a distence...) there's no way made him fly there or me fly to Japan anyway... so the only thing I can do at Valentines Day is being with my best friend then....
well... what a shame is that my best friend and I decided to see a movie tonight...
but there's no good movies which is interested us during these days...
so we ultimately decided to stay at home instead.... =.=" okey okey...
I'll just stay at home... probably see some movies fron HBO and preparing my exam which is coming soon !! and go out for no purpuses... maybe?? hahaha
hope every one have a nice Valentines Day with your partner and treasure every moment together ~ !! ***
(um... I probably got to grab some chocolates later... hahaha)

Friday, February 1, 2008

What are you waiting for ?? and why ??

"what are you waiting for? and why ??" ( the situation between me and my bf )
this is a quick question that Paul asked me yesterday...
well ~ good question though... I just said to him... I dont think Im waiting for him or something...
because for me... waiting means that you like someone and he/she doesnt like you ... and you still like him/her or something like that ... that calls "waiting"... but for him ~ like what Im doing now is called "waiting " !! I dont know really... I was stuck there for a while... didnt know how to react and reply ... maybe it's just different point of view by everyone ~ so that's what he thinking about me anyway...
ummm..
it's probably true~
if I wasnt me... just a third party...
I would think this kinda relationship isnt worthy at all...
but now... the thing is Im the person who is in there !!
that's very different ...
and this is the very first time that I have this kinda thought that I do love someone...
I really wanna stay with him
even if I cannot see him often like other couple's ...
but it's okey for me though...
I've been going through this...
LOVE is very subjective...
before maybe I just wasnt really in love with someone~
so, that's why I felt tired of then very fast...
and I dont wanna see a guy everyday ~ I need some space for myself...
and Paul gave me another quick question again...
" if you dont wanna see a guy every day ...
how could you talk about marriage ? "
( well~ good question again !! )
yeah.. I stuck again...and I was thinking this issue for a while ...
and I came up with a answer...
I think it's becasue I didnt love them( all of my "EX" )
or I just like them very a little bit ...
or the worst... I didnt like them at all but still accepted them...
had the relationship with them...
suddenly... I felt very bad... ><"
what was I doing ??!! (I was like dating with them for killing the feeling of being lonely??)
bad girl... I am really.... a bad... girl...
this is the time to figure out this now... truly..
I dont wanna myself like this... fluctuating and fluctuating ...
easy to think the other way which isnt good or which is just a saying by others
and Im kinda easy to be affected by someone...
but what am I supposed to do ??
trust the feeling of myself ?
trust him?
trust love...?
many of my friends had talked to me about this ...
and I know !! I know what they are thinking really...
but it's what I chose... even if I would be failed eventually ...
Im still willing to take it by myself...
just maybe I will become very very....
anyway.... dont wanna think that much further now....
just hope everything between he and me would be fine... !!