what's happening to me today?!!

It's kinda weired today... just feel very lazy... and don't wanna do anything... anything...

yes... I did think about doing something... like reading , studying or so...

but just cannot have that energy to do all of that things.... >.<" why why why ~~

I don't want me to be like that !!!

oh... it's because of the chololates ?? I had lots of chololates this afternoon ...

it supposed to make me excited !! yes... that's what chololates supposed to give... it calls " the side effect " ?? hahaha but seems I'm not affected by it ...

I've been addicted to chocolate for a long time ~

well ~ I got to say... I've been addicted to many dessert ^c^"

chocolate, brownie,cheese,bagle,bread,spicy food..... lots of stuffs !!

~SWEET SWEET SWEET~

LIFE IS UNCERTAIN...

EAT DESSERT FIRST !!

... Distance ...

my best friend... Sammi .... she told me something that made me feel very sad.... truly...

she seemed to fall in love with a guy and wanted to be with him....

but just because the distance... it's just Taipei and Tainan, 4 hours by driving, 40 min. by flight, one hour and half by high speed rail....

it's not that far actually....

but the guy who wants a girl who can accompany him when he is happy, upset , sick...

whenever he wants to see her... he can see her then... but my friend cannot do that... !!

kinda sad ... really .... feeling sad for her... and sorry for her...

just hope that she could go through it soon ... be happier ...

I'll accompany you anyway...

you can tell me whatever you want

whenever you want

and I would give you some advices then~

but... the point is...

you got to think about it over again...

and be possitive,be brighter...

thinking about what you did ...

what's your real feeling ??!!

stop for a while...

and maybe after you think over again...

you would become better...

TRAVELING ON THE TRAIN OF " トロッコ "

嵯峨野トロッコ列車

CATCH YOU !! SHRIMP !! HAHA ≧０≦

~ It's a funny mistake !!! ~

A film ~ " The Notebook "

A love story... very very touching...I watched the film yesterday... and I was tearing a lot !!

the story is saying that something about the "first love"... you won't forget your first love....

for me... true... I never forgot my first love.... but the different thing is that I had it just let go...

cause it's kinda long time ago...and when I recalled my first love , I was like laughing a lot !!

hahaha cause it's kinda funny and at that time... I was too young to know what love is...

well if you ask me now...what's the love ? probably I would think about it for a while still ...

cannot give you a answer ... it's complicated... true !!

It doesn't mean that you know what love is even if you are growing up

for me... love is becoming simple now... because I was thinking too much before...

I couldn't be very easy to trust someone... it was hard for me to give my heart for someone...

and even... I could say that I haven't truly been in love before...

I was always like... the feeling came very fast and faded away very fast ...

so...I didn't have a long term relationship...( just my first love is one year... is it long or not ?? )

and I changed and changed in every year... my friends always felt that I got and changed boy friend very fast... well... I don't think that's fast actually ... just very easy to accept someone and said yes... but maybe it was not fair... cause usually I didn't give them my heart... "me" always came first ... hahaha kinda selfish... wasn't I ??!!

and I did think that I was searching .... searching a right person... my Mr. right...

anyway... just recalling a little bit again...

the point is NOW ... I have a nice boy friend now !! ^－^ and I love him !!

I do think this time is right... I finally found a right person ...

I hope that I could be with him for very very long time... cannot say ... " forever "

because there are too many unpredictable things... and I don't know if he is thinking the same way with what I am thinking ... so ~

this time I just wanna give me heart... there was many things happened ... and they all proved one thing... I love this guy !! I know myself... many things I didn't do or think that way before...

but now ... different !! indeed !!

when I was watching the film..." THE NOTEBOOK " ...

I was thinking of him much...

miss him very much... ...

Learning Spanish is kinda a long way to go... >o<"

I started to learn Spanish ....

but it's kinda complicated ... so many different stuffs from Chinese or... even English ??

I wrote some notes and tried to figure it out many grammar things... but still felt too difficult to understand !! ...

well ~ I'm gonna try my best anyway...

cause I really wanna learn !!!!

*** and of course... make it become better someday ***

MY MOM SAID...

I got a very exciting news from my mom ~

my mom said... " I'd like to take you to Greece with me next year "

when I heard this news ~ I was very excited ~ hahaha ^0^p

I just said..." really??!!! yes!! I wanna go ~ I wanna go ~ "

no matter what there's something try to stop me... I won't be stoped anyway !!

I'm so expected for next year coming ~ it will be a very different year next year ~

there're many things waiting me to fulfill it~

the first is ... I got to have TOEIC test next February !

the second is ... I got to plan my working holiday ~ I'm planing to go to Australia for working holiday since next beginning of October or the end of September !

the third is ... my graduating trip is next June ~ (two weeks trip ) I'm going to go to America again~! but this time is the west coast !! it's better for me since I've been to the east coast !! hahaha I'm gonna graduate from collage soon ~!! dunno I should be have more happy feeling or more worry feeling or.... ??!! but anyway... I tend to have more happy feeling !!

the forth is ... I'm going to Greece with my mom next beginning of September !!

hahaha seems I won't be in Taiwan almost half a year next year ~

and the most big thing is .... I must go to visit my David couple of times next year too !!

see ~ how exciting next year will be ~ !!

Really got a serious problem this time ...

I got a serious problem this time... really...

and the only solution is I gotta practice by myself !!

for him and also for myself... I have no chance but do it !!

so I will do it when I recover from "it" !! >.<6>

I haven't thought that I would have this kinda problems before...

and I haven't thought that I would want to make changes and do something just because of him... it's not like my style anyway...

but ... maybe this time is different....

I found that maybe ~ he would be different from all of my ex-bf...

I found that maybe ~ I would give my real heart to a special person...

I found that this is the first time I really care about something about a relationship...

anyway... I will do my best to try...

it's about time to off my computer again...

the last thing on my mind is ....

*** I MISS YOU VERY MUCH ***

** A Letter for Future Me **

Dear Future Me :

Are you happy? Where are you now?? Have you fulfilled all your dreams???

Future just like a question mark, no one knows what it will be.... but because of this ~

it makes the life more vibrant and colourful ~

Are you happy ? I hope you are!! Do you get the happiness that you wanted? I hope so...

Where are you now ?? Still in Taiwan or somewhere else just like you desired before ?

I hope you are living in the place where you desired ~ your dream country or your dream land...

Have you fulfilled all your dreams ? well~ probably not... but you must have done some of them though !! Do you still remember what your dreams are... ??

Let me remind you ~

You said that you wanted to enter a international company ~ and you could have that chance to work abroad ~ you wanted to get a good job ~ have a good salary ~

You said that you wanted to travel around the world when you made enough money ~

you just wanna fly away~ to find the real freedom, the real "you"...

You said that you wanna own a small shop or cafe ~ that could be clothing shop,coffee shop, snack shop , or cafe ~

You said that you wanna have a family ... sweet husband, sweet home ~

and everyone around me who all healthy, happy, get what they want ~

Still keeping in touch with my best friends~ you all mean something for me...

All your life would be wonderful if like this... It looks simple... but somehow it doesn't !! indeed !!

SO~ ARE YOU DONE ALL OF THEM ? OR JUST SOME OF THEM? OR... NONE OF THEM ?

HOPE WHILE YOU READ THIS AGAIN... YOU ALREADY DONE SOMETHING WELL !! ~

Just Believe In What You Believe 。。。

"Just believe in what you believe... and don't let others twist your mind "

yeah.. that's a saying what I think about now...

one of my friends just judged my relationship when I went to Japan...

well~ I felt a little bit upset at her... cause she isn't me !! she couldn't say something like that...

she isn't in the situation and she haven't got this kinda situation as well...

maybe you got to in there and you would understand what's really going on...

but maybe I could understand why she thought so...

cause if I were her I probably would think so too... but that was the "past me"...

in the past... I was kinda rational... even if I was in a relationship...

I just couldn't believe in others... I was always thinking maybe he just wanted to get something from me !! something bad...

but who knows this time I just jump in totally... cannot help myself !! . . .

( cannot believe myself either... is it Anita ?? HAHAHA )

now... I'm like keep everything simple...

don't try to make things complicated...

just be happier ~

if you asked me ... " am I happiness ? "

I would definitely give you a big "YES" ~

*** ~ YES... I AM HAPPINESS ~ ***

I am back from Japan ~

I'm back !! Time moved so fast ~ my 5 days visiting just ended up yesterday... !!

I'm ganna start to miss him again !! >.<"

This time we went to some place where I haven't been to...

神戶 at night、岡山縣 visited the Okayama Korakuen Garden、嵐山 嵯峨野

took the Sagano romatic train .... all of them was great !!

We also had a kinda "explore" in the second day ~ we couldn't make it to take the train and back to Nara... so we decided to stay in somewhere ... IN THE INTERNET CAFE !!!

and kept going the next day... that's my first time didn't sleep almost 48 hours !! kinda crazy !!

but because it was with him ... so everything was okey for me... ^^"

I would never ever forget all of that ... we seldom see each other... maybe that's why everything we do for me it's like... very precious !!

This time I went there ... also had two dinner with his friends who are came to Japan for honey moon !! during the time... I couldn't understand what were they talking about ...

cause they were speaking Spanish almost all the time !!

It also made me thought that I really have to learn Spanish....

well I've strated to learn anyway... but it all just begining... I still got a long way to go !!~~

but I will try my best... from the simple sentances... hopefully I could do it good one day...

hahaha (^﹏^)b

I am in Japan again !! ^__^ ||

Im now in Nara where is my David's university located

remembered the first day when I was at the airport ... my mood got very complicated...

cause I skipped the class and came here secreatly !!

but anyway... I just did what I wanted to do... !!

from the first day till today... I was like ate a lot of food ... every meal was big !!

I told him that if I lived with him everyday... I would become fat in a very short time.... >.<

kinda terrible isnt it?!

and he always eats very fast .. fast... cannot chase the speed of him when we are eating...

so every time when we finish one meal ... I always feel very uncomfortable with my belly... !!

hey... you just cannot slow down when you're eating ??

he's sleeping now.... it's already 1 past 10 PM... and I'm hungry now...

but I cannot do anything but sitting here playing computer....

hey hey hey... wake up !! WAKE UP !!

I started my Spanish class yesterday !!

HAHA !! FINALLY ~ I started the Spanish class !! From yesterday... and I'll attend the class every Saturday night ~ The teacher who's a Taiwanese and she's fun, full of energy~ I do think I'll have much interest in Spanish from her !! and plus ... the main point that I did wanna learn Spanish is "David" !! so... I must got much energy on it !!

The teacher I guess she's kinda Spain addict ~ she knows many things about Spain and visits there bunch of times... well ~ no doubt... she's a Spanish teacher she must like that for sure !!

I wanna take it seriously this time ... no game again... and I do think as long as I truly want to learn I will learn much from the teacher !!