SoMeOnE iNsPiRe Me ...

I read a book and the author is 吳淡如~

She says something really inspiring me a lot ~

She says... it's the worst thing that do not keep working on something anymore...

and just stop moving on...

so she makes up her mind ~

Must to learn a new thing every year~

Must to go somewhere that she never been to~

Must to learn some concept~

Must to have some new idea~

Then she says.... everyone has their own right to choose the life which is they wanted~

to own the relationship which is they desired~

Don't repeat what others say and to find a way... insist on it ~

Also got to have a hope that never swims with the tide... !!

Yes... I have same thought with her as well...

I totally agree with her... !!

Having a Indian Cuisine ~

I had a big lunch with my friends today ~ ( Sammi and Stefanie )

I love curry very much ~ especially Indian one !! hahaha yummy !!

My friends who's my friends met in NYC , we had Indian food there couple times~

So we compared with that ... !! One of my friends said that meal a little bit "tend to Taiwanese"!

well ~ I just thought the one we had in NYC was more delicious then here ~ but here is good as well ~ just the portion was a little bit small though ... >.<"

Anyway... overall~ I had a good lunch date with my friends ^u^p

seeya in December ~ Stefanie ~ !!

MaDe A DeCiSion !!

I made a decision today that I'm going to learn Spanish again !!

hahaha I had tried once learning Spanish ,but I quit after learned one month !!

Cause I felt very frustrated .... it's kinda difficult for me and plus my English was not good either... !! I even couldn't understand what the teacher taught us... and didn't know how to ask the teacher for helping me to solve my problems either !!

Sort of sad and terrible experience for me !!

But this time is different ~ well... I hope it is !!

I have a goal ~ I must achieve that !!

Just do it !!

I got my flight ticket already !!

I got my flight ticket to Japan yesterday ~

It's kinda a secreat short trip ~

cause I didn't tell my parents and classmates even all of my friends either !!

just told couple of my friends though...

I don't wanna say it out loud to many people anyway ~

Cause not so many people know that I have a " Español novio " hahaha

Is it a secreat also ?? Well... not so really is...

I don't think I'm a person who have many secreat ...

Always keep myself very being "public" LOL

anyway, I'm gonna go to Japan again for visiting my David !!

so look forward to it !!

It's like... 12 days countdown ~~ ≧0≦p

CoMpLiCaTeD Feeling .... >﹣<"

David told something to me this morning ...

He said he's gonna get a part time job soon and the position is... host !!

I asked him... " what kinda host ?? "

He said... " at bar !! like girls who's standing behide bar and being a hostess, doing services"

Well ~ what kinda services ~ "talking with customers"

I know what kinda job it is... we have this here in Taiwan as well ~

But sometimes.... it's not a good job for general...

Just can make lots of money with a easy way and in a short time ...

I even didn't think about that he will think doing this kinda job for making money anyway... !!!

so I just like... " shocked !! " a little bit surprised also !! and got a little bit complicated feeling...

He explained the details to me and said.... " he won't do anything over it , just chatting with those rich women... that's all !! "

I said... " okey... I see... and I trust you ... "

Why did I choose that trusting him ?!

It's all just because he's my boy friend and I love him.... am I stupid ?? !!

hahaha I don't know ... but I know what I'm doing ... for sure !!

I do think he is trustful ~ and if he isn't.... he won't tell me that he's gonna do that kinda job anyway... so...

YES... DAVID... I TRUST YOU... AND HOPE ... I'M RIGHT ...

It also make me thought about one thing again... " MONEY is such a important stuff "

It's hard to live very well without money.... and like the situation of us...

It's more harder !! I'm also a student... and I'm gonna quit my part time job this end of month...

How about after that?? !! I do wanna focus on something meaningful for myself...

so I decided to learn languages more ~ that also means I won't have extra-money then !!

I just can save money from my daily life.... >_<" maybe if there's a chance I will find a weekend PT job in Tainan.... ( yes, I decided to go back during the weekend ... cause maybe it would save some money also !! )

anyway... the thing is... I believe in you , David !!

so... hope that you won't do anything more then what you said to me !!

I watched the travel & living channel ~

I watched the " travel & living " which is one of my favorite channels

the topic was traveling in Europe and buying furnitures

and this time was in Madrid !!

I never been there ~ well I never been to Europe ...

so my eyes were blinking~ blinking !!

Especially it's in the Madrid where is "my David's" hometown !!

Madrid is vibrant with people and very beautiful !!

I really wanna go there one day !! hahaha I hope that I had that chance ~

Well ~ I will have anyway, cause I'm just 21 !! Still young !! LOL

I haven't seen this world enough !! and if I could I would definitely do !!

我 還 沒 看 夠 這 世 界 !!

RuN aWaY ...

What a "FXXX" day today !! ><"

In the morning ~ everything was fine and I could say... very well !!

I hung out with one of my old friends ~ chatted a lot and had a very good time !!

But the thing is... in the afternoon... something happened in the afternoon...

Well... I just can say.... I felt very unhappy when I was working ....

Got so much pressure... and found very bored....

I couldn't have any smile on my face.... couldn't "make" a smile as well !!

Even to ask me to make a "fake smile "... also make me feel difficult !!

I looked the mirror when I went to the rest room, found ....

WHAT A UGLY FACE IT IS ?!! WHO IS IT? AM I KNOW HER ?

I tried to smile.. but just couldn't... !! just wanted to cry.... really..!!

I was thinking if I quit the job... what would I do next ?

I was thinking a lot , a lot... and kept wrinkling my eyebrows....

My face was like... distorted !! >0<"

I got to plan something meaningful for me though...

I had many plans... but haven't made it !!

seems like I just keep thinking and doing nothing !!!

I hate myself like this...

got to do it anyway...

I decided to end up my PT job this month, and might study instead ~

I really have to do it !! cheer up ~~!!

SleEpY... sLeEpY ~~ all the time !! ≧o≦"

How come I feel soooo sleepy lately ?!!

Is it because the winter is coming ?!!

Or I got some kinda mental problems ?!!

HAHAHA

I don't think so anyway...

But I have no energy at all...

Just wanna sleep ...

Well ~ recently... I didn't do anything meaningful, just downloaded two movies and bunch of musics ~ read some books and surfed on the internet as usual !! hahaha

?? What kinda life I have now ??

So meaningless ... gotta find something more meaningful do to !!

I had some plans ~ just haven't got started to do...

Got to cheer myself up ~~ go go go !!

Te Echo De Menos !!

The song "Bubbly" makes me think about you ...

We cannot see each other often like other couples...

That make me feel sad ... truly...

I own a little book...

To note down many things about what we had and experienced...

( also stick some lovely photos on it )

When I miss you ...

I write something on it as well !!

Well ~ I cannot do anything but write something down...

It also be memories of us...

I don't know how we will go in the future...

The only thing that I know is "now" !!

Time will tell,

will prove,

Let's take time to realize ...

Right now...

I just wanna treasure all we have...

and don't wanna think too much...

~ Te Amo ~

Bubbly

I've been awake for a while now

you've got me feelin like a child now

cause every time i see your bubbly face

I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes

and I crinkle my nose

where ever it goes i always know

that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time

where ever you go

The rain is fallin on my window pane

but we are hidin in a safer place

under the covers stay in safe and warm

you give me feelings that i adore

It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goes

I always know that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time

where ever you go

What am i gonna say

when you make me feel this way

I just........mmmmmmmmmmm

It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goes

I always know

that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time where ever you go

I've been asleep for a while now

You tucked me in just like a child now

Cause every time you hold me in your arms

Im comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul

And I lose all control

When you kiss my nose

The feeling shows

Cause you make me smile

Baby just take your time

Holdin' me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go

by Colbie Caillat

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2PWfB4lurT4

Being confused... !!

well... I'm now confused... about whether I should stay with this job or not.... ??!!

Because I found that it's kinda bored and sometimes a little bit something pressed me !!

If I just stand there it will make the supervisor upset... but I just don't know how to grab someone in like others do... or maybe just don't wanna open my mouth....

don't know why... I'm getting don't understand what I am thinking about and just feeling strange !! seemed I changed and changed ... again and again !! I don't like myself like this anyway !! But I cannot do anything with that...

Well.... these days are so depressing.... >_<"

Will it be a brand new day tomorrow ??

A sad song .... but the melody is very nice~

The Days Are Long And Filled With Pain

The days are long and filled with pain We'll throw our lives away again

I've never seen in my whole life My worst friend's sugar baby wife

Now my life is gone Won't you try to hold me tight?

'Cause you'll be me and I'll be out What will I find inside my head?

The sun is gone
But there's still light down inside my mind

There's still a lot for us to see in this life
Today you slipped into my head I'm waiting for you inside my bed

There ain't no sense in feeling low I need more when you ever have to go
Some might say that I walked through that door

All my dreams are made of stupid whores

Some might say that I fell from the sky

But I have got a pillow in my eye

by Maximilian Hecker

National Holiday at 大鵬灣

10/10 is National Holiday!! I went to see the firework !!

I went to 大鵬灣 with some of my classmates and some strangers ( well ~ are they strangers ? haha just my classmate's friends though ) , there were two guys who had cars , so we could take free car and didn't have to ride motorbike !! I just can say how lucky we are !!

THANK YOU YOU GUYS !!

Ummm... mentioning those guys ... I just can say.... they're like what we so call "台客" really !!!

The "台客 style" driving and action ... !! @.@"

It's kinda a little bit long time since I got along with those kinda people... so I found not so ....

(dunno how to describe it ) anyway ~ we still had a very good time ~ ^__^

This time is the longest one ~ lasting one hour !! wow !! for me it's long !! I was just standding by the lagoon and taking my camera, wanted to take many nice pictures !! But after half hour past... I started feeling boring hahaha!!

Because it's just not so special for me at all.... I like the" golden ones" but too many "red ones" !!

I understood that's because it's National Holiday and the red color is symbolize the Nation and us !! anyway, I dont care any of them !! I wanna see more colorful fireworks !!! >。<"

~~~ Scream Out Loud~~~

A book " My life in Seattle" by 張妙如

I read a book named "My Life In Seattle " (西雅圖妙記). The author is 張妙如,

it's a writing and painting mixed book, very funny !! The author who married to a Norwegian and live in Seattle ... The book is talking about her daily life there and many funny,interesting things happen there !! I like this kinda book very much ~ and I was thinking that maybe I could write something like that !! hahaha it's just a thinking , a desire, but I still didn't create anything though...@.@"

Today, I read her book, also make me thought this again ~ and also make me thought about "David and Me" ~ well... maybe I could write something about us!? but the point is we're not living together, not living in the same country...

so we don't have much connection that I can write down....

I just can write something like... how I miss him... how I feel to him,what I think in my mind... !!

How poor it is anyway... so I don't create anything ...

but I really hope that I could create something like that one day !!

I make a wish again ~ seems I have many wishes !! ≧﹏≦

Will it be true one day ??!!

been thinking about something...

I've been thinking about something for a while...

what am I gonna do after I graduate from collage ??

because no answer appeared... so I decided to go to "explore" my life in Australia...

working holiday it is... yeah ... is it a kinda escape ?! I dunno anyway... maybe ... maybe not !!

I got some dreams that I really wanna carry out !! but the basic is that I had to fulfill myself and not just one specific skill or something... got to fulfill myself by many different way....

my weakness is that I'm too lazy to do many things and have no patient... !! yeah I know !!

I truly know about that !! but I just cant do anything with that.... kinda sad... I know....

well what is my dream...

* I wish I could live abroad no matter which country it is...(well ~ not every country... I'll say almost every country except Asia countries.. the country I love !! ^__^) spending rest of my life there... !!

** I wish there's one guy who's the best, I love most .... and would like to spend, to share his life with me... truly take care of me ,truly love me !!

*** I wish that I could have a wonderful job .... the job which is I like , interested in that... so that I could be happier with doing that !!

Life is getting simple for me ~ I don't want a complicated life anymore !!

simple life ~ simple happiness !!!

it's my first day working in World Gym ( my part time job )
well I can say ... I'm lucky ??!! coz there's a guy came to me and ask something about the gym ~
and the point is he signed up !! so I got a bonus !! hahaha

well ~ it's kinda a little bit boring anyway ~ coz it's Tuesday ... so there's not many people around there ~
I just walked around right in front of the gym ~ and sent the flyer ~ hahaha it's a easy job tho.

the other guy told me that it really need LUCK !! LUCK IS IMPORTANT !!

so hope I could get lots of luck then ~ be a lucky girl !! hahaha